Right. This is also going to be a loooooooong and personal post. Just thought to warn you in advance.
How This Project Came To Be
Life Before Books...
Before I started getting more interested in the book community, I was all negativity and little positivity. I would have all those negative thoughts and could be insecure at times, to the point where I couldn't get mysef to lift my head at school. I didn't have as much confidence as I would've liked to have - it was of those times where you learn so much about everything -how people treat you, how you should treat them back, etc., etc...and suddenly you're feeling like too much is forced upon you. My parents' occasional berating didn't help much too. I was at possibly one of the lowest points of my life, until I read a book, loved it, and looked it up online. It was then I discovered the magical world of books and fandoms -you could just say books and I just clicked.
How Books Have Changed Me
Some of the distinct changes in my life (in point form!):
- I have become a MUCH more confident person. I didn't care how much I weighed (eh, I'm not a very skinny person), how good I looked in clothes, and what people thought of me and my appearance. Although to say that yes, all of us will feel a little insecure sometimes, I'm not the girl who once was afraid to look into mirrors and feel bad anymore.
- I am now happier and more optimistic about things. Books are magical. They slip bits and bits of hope into ourselves. I now find myself looking on the better side of things and most of my negativity has drained away.
- I have become much more of myself. Before I started getting into books, I wasn't as opinionated as I am now. Pieces of myself are coming back that make me, me. Naturally the shy part of me is still there, but I now stand up for myself whenever someone says something bad about me or anything. I don't recoil into my shell. I found something that I'm happy to associate myself with.
- I've made friends that I'm so happy to have. There are A LOT of book bloggers that I haven't talked to much yet (I'm still trying out this thing guys!) but still, I've found nice people to converse with and I feel so glad to finally be able to share my bookish side of myself with people that share the same passion for books as I do.
- I don't feel like I'm wasting my life anymore. All those thoughts like 'the heck am I doing with my life??' or, 'I really need to do something with my life' have vanished from my mind -mostly. I'll admit, I'm an ambitious person. I want things done in my life, I'm not letting it go to waste. Running a book blog is one of the best ways to make my life better as I'm actually doing something that I like. I'm projecting my love for books by blogging about them, and I love it.
- Books have given me a sense of calm. Whenever I read, I enter into this tranquil state which only consists of me, the book, and the story within, which I'm fairly sure that book lovers are able to relate to. Everyone outside from that quiet bubble is blocked away. Reading makes me feel peaceful and relieved. It de-stresses me. Whenever I feel stressed, settling into a quiet spot and sinking into my oblivious state is the best thing ever.
- Also, I have acquired much poorer eyesight than before, but I'm not complaining. That's where the reading glasses come in.